“Melancholy”

Staying in this cold, quite, and endless room of misery,

Where I only can find peace the moment I close my eyes and fell into deep sleep,

Laying down, blankly staring at the walls, feeling the tears that slowly crossing down,

And let it fall on my pillow…

Lucky tears, finally found its safe sanctuary, 

Unlike me, still here, still in fear…

Doubting every seconds, minutes, hours, and days that passing by,

Wondering if that was still for me,

Or for those who are lucky enough and happy…

Calmness,

Like the deep ocean, that lies a deep mystery…

Can be like me, transparent in a way

But,

Clouded with intense shadow that still visible in the dark…

Wiping this tears now, and pretend again,

That, I’m okay…